Day15 - You say go faster, I say slow the fuck down.

Tuesday, Jan. 15, 2008: New Vitamins

The hardest thing for me to do is to remember to do something everyday. I just don't have the mind for it. I think that it's because I'm so disinterested in reality most of the time. I refuse to believe it's because I'm lazy.

Because of my new found love of healthy stuff, I decided that I wanted to give it another whack. We went to GNC and asked the chick there if she had an opinion. She pointed the Women's Ultra Mega Active Vitapak out to me, which were more expensive that the vitamins that she is currently taking and the vitamins that she will be switching to. She must be pushing these because they have an "energy enhancer" and that is probably the kind of thing that people are looking for these days.

I am, however, not looking for a boost of any kind. I specifically asked her if the caffeine that is present in these would affect me adversely. She assured me it would not because it is a natural form of caffeine, not some x14 bullshit or whatever the kids are taking these days.

Let me just say that I am currently only drinking water, except for coke when it's mixed with Captain. And that is not an everyday thing - more like weekly/monthly. I really don't even drink juice, just some tea in the morning. I am not conditioned for caffeine.

And I wasn't conditioned for these.

But I do think for my money, I am getting a lot of vitamins. Even though one of them tastes burn-y.




They make me a wreck. And absolute wreck. I want to run around the block and take a nap at the same time. It's just awful.

Last night I took them before I went to bed thinking that I could just sleep off the crazy. I was wrong… I was up all night in a sub-REM sleep. It sucked and I am miserable today.

I just… I've never done speed - no crank, coke, etc. The closest thing was popping Xanies in high school.  I would just rather be drunk or passed out.

So, I don't think that I can take them back and I'm def. not going to toss that kind of money out the window. I don't have that kind of loot to set fire too.

I'm going to see if I can devise which pill is which and delete the caffeine pill from my life. Fingers crossed it's the one that tastes like hell.